Week ??? (Disappearance, etc...)

I disappeared again. It was accidental, mostly. I think this weekly updating scheme was a bit to ambitious. I often feel too lazy to make these little posts, especially when I'm so unsure if anyone's reading them. Though hearing from a few friends and acquaintances after a recent internet vanishing act makes me want to give it another go. So, here we go.
(This one's going to be a bit long...)

Weather! Scarfs!

These past few weeks have pretty nice, a strange return to a kind of normalcy. The weather has calmed to the point where the air no longer suppresses as it once did, when the shear heat kept the sweat flowing but any ambition to do anything at all mildly interesting at an all-time low. Interesting, I now feel that temperatures in the 60's-70's (ie. 20's c) are downright chilly and frequently need to bundle up in a scarf. I suppose that means I've adjusted, though it remains a bit baffling to feel a shake of a chill when it's still semi-tropical outdoors... as it always is.

Politics (US Election in Indialand)

The amerikan election came and went in Kolkata in a classically unusual and novel fashion. Due to the time difference the polls closed at around 6 in the morning, though luckily the consulate was putting on a results watching party in a smaller ball-room at one of the nicest hotels in town. Fruit-juices, chocolate donuts that reminded me of elementary school birthday celebrations, and miniature pizzas - that were so by name only - abounded, along with a ridiculous supply of pins, the mccain-palin ones remaining mostly untouched. Interestingly, or perhaps expectedly, the demographics of expats living in Kolkata lie heavily in the blue, save for the occasional patron of red, or really more commonly green. Perhaps it's because the group here tends to be fairly young, fairly open-minded, failry well-educated, fairly moneyed enough to be able to take a salary in rupees rather than dollars for a few months that this group of people tend toward the left. I'd be curious if the make-up of the expat communities in other metros like Delhi and Mumbai would be equally so unequal... if this was a trend specifically for the iconified 'neediness' of Kolkata, or if it exists throughout the larger India. As the polls began to get tallied and the sun slowly rose invisibly beyond the velveted and draped walls of our stately compound others began to filter in: the majority of my friends and friends-of-friends here, the volunteer-tourists from sudder-street, the stay-at-home mommies of big amerikan company men, the unmistakable glossiness of nri's temporarily back in residency, the old kurta'ed men there seemingly only for an interest in international politics. Lining the back edge of the auditorium a line of video cameras had been set up by local press and men with large cameras took pictures of occasionally enthused foreigners watching two jumbo-trons bedecked in tricolor (our tricolor) balloon archways.

[In the day that followed the election, the pictures of various expats, particularly the pretty girl ones, graced the covers or inside foreign sections of the newspapers perhaps just as often as the exuberant portrait of Obama himself. I myself was in a few, and of course kept copies of the better ones. Theres something novel about a picture posed with Obama, its subtitles cast in the unmistakable points and curlicues of Bengali]

Soon after breakfast began transmogrifying into mini-pizzas the election almost anti-climatically was called to its well received close, though we lacked the same kind of exuberant punctuation lent by the parades and celebration that I heard about back home in the big cities. We did, however, have a rather large amerikan flag cake and some hearty smiles. Our own sort of proxied celebration, momentarily tied back to our homes not through economic worries ill-fated news, but rather this poetic blessing of change. Sitting in this particularly polyglotic group, watching a self-titled mutt shake his fist in the air on stage as the new president, I felt an embarrassing little surge of giddiness and excitement. The future...? Mixtures, ambiguity, heterogeneity, internationalism, globalism, contradictions and juxtaposition... the future! change!

Varanasi

I visited my friend Davey, living in Sarnath right outside of Varanasi a week or so ago. The train ride itself was a bit of a good old adventure; Me, alone somewhere in northeastern India, in an overnight train for at least 15 hours or so, amused particularly by the varying supplies of snacks sold aboard the train and the occasional invasion of the train cars by packs of Hijras (Those characters that occupy a particularly strange fringe of Indian society, a troop of heavily made up and sometimes strangely disproportionate, their ranks made up of Eunechs, hermaphrodites, transvestities, transgenders, gays, and what have you), clapping and jeering at men frozen stiff in a mockery of deaf and dumb. They'd straddle mens legs gesturing awkwardly, their mouths twisted in a compromise between the Lolita and the aggressor, squawking retorts until men coughed up a few rupees in return for an air kiss not bargained for. Sometime after a tiffin-dinner and before the lights in the car flicked off for sleep, as the train lay idling in a field somewhere, no doubt rice-paddies spread invisible in the darkness beyond the window bars, flashes of light jostled about outside as a hush fell over the cabin. Suddenly people and bags were being rearranged for seemingly no reason as a swarm formed outside the train car, identifiable only by the uniformity of Muslim dress. My fellow berth mates refused to explain what was happening, their mouths clamped below eyed beaming apprehension and some kind of fun. I panicked a bit inside, thoughts of communal violence and muslim-hindu aggression managing to both cloud and cut through the situation. However this group of mohammadean pirates were little more than illegal passengers, boxed out of getting tickets due to the holiday-time uptick of travel, looking to sneak into any space left unoccupied, the panic on board only based in losing a little foot and luggage space, rather than a limb or an eye. I felt a little foolish. Ooops. But eventually I reached my destination without so much a hitch.

I witnessed Diwali (The festival of lights, the symbolic return of Ram back home amongst much celebration and invitation) gearing up in what's supposed to be its festival capital. I was a tourist for a few days, enjoying such things like crusty bread and a wide assortment of pastry, things really only available in tourist enclaves and thusly pretty sparsely found through Kolkata. There was a profusion of swiss, a gaggle of elderly English eating pizza riverside, and only a couple or so Amerikan mingling amongst the Indian population through the alleyways of this city so totally defined by such disparate industries. Firstly, and primarily there's the industry of death, of ritual burning and immersion, an economy based on fortuitousness and the merit of dying and being cremated in this particular spot.

(It's interesting, for a moment to consider the shape of the city with respect to this. Just as the city for so many represents a cosmic threshold, represents the hope and possibility of a better life, or more hopefully its very dissolution... a passage into the grace of nothingness, the city itself seems composed of one immense stark edge - The city sits heaped up along the shores of the Ganga, its density and solidity standing in profound contrast to the absolute nothingness of the river and the sandy flood-plain opposite. Urban and disurban, chaos and perfect emptiness - at night the curl of the city becomes illuminated, the faint bustle of traffic still echoing within its arteries, the flash and giggle of a firecracker carried along its shores, while the mist rolls in to confront it from the river, reflecting back only a faint and diffused echo of its light and life. A shallow reminder of the bustle we all occupy, obliterated in a near absolute and beautiful empty.)

Secondly, (I have strayed... now back to industry/economy), there is the massive tourist industry: The boatmen lining the shores shouting for customers (some boats filled with knick-knacks rather than passengers, which sideline the tour-boats in transit to make a sell), the children selling postcards, floating candles,and bizarre meaningless insignia to be painted on the bony plane between the wrist and thumb. A community of these touristing cosmopolites rummages through these shit-dazzled streets, looking for their own kind of (right of) passage, yet often distracted by the many opportunities to buy flowy pants and patchworks shawls and sling-bags, a kind of fashion that looks like an exotified and fetishized pair of Indian pyjamas, traditionally never worn out of the house and in sum alien to actual 'local' culture. Though in a sense, while this transient population exists liminally in its own way, always taking a train or more often an air-conditioned behemoth of a bus onto the next fanciful destination after a few days, and returning to the safety and austerity of their european espresso makers and smart minimalist furniture usually after a few weeks, in a city like Varanasi they have become their own culture, their own economy, their own market superimposed upon what actually existed in the city that attracted the first visitors, that somehow contrived the 'flowy pant' for sale to these dewy eyed and fair-cheeked spectators. The citizens might be temporary, might be only renting and loaning their small guest-house residences, their membership to their nation, yet this very nature stands permanent, ready to be filled by its fleeting migrants, its funny patrons. All hail the tourist economy, the tourist culture, the tourist nation, marching onwards to the distant horizon, trance music buffered by local percussion blasting around their army, che guereva standing at their helm, dreadlocks flying up in a sudden gust of unusually chilly wind... the wind of our own fleeting mortality, or perhaps only hankering for Thai food or a baguette whilst abroad in the 'fantastic kaleidescope' of India.